Question/task 1.
Letter to a ghost:
Mom,
I love you, I miss you. It's only been a few weeks since I lost you, since the phone call that changed life as I know it. The pain is still so raw, I cry every day, I talk to you every day, wishing I could pick up the phone and hear your voice, knowing I never will again.
I had told you and I truly mean it, you were my best friend, the one I could go to about anything at any time. I knew you would always love me, unconditionally, and you did. You were ALWAYS there for me, I wish I could of been there for you. Maybe if I hadn't moved away, maybe if I had pushed to get you closer, maybe. My life is now filled with that word.
My life now has a void and my heart aches at the worlds loss of you. Did you know how much you were loved by so many? Did you know you were beautiful? Did you believe me when I told you? Do you now? Do you know the world is a worse place without you in it?
You gave your love freely, and some did not deserve it!
I brought you home. I have your things. I'd rather have you. You gave me courage to do so much, how will I continue that? My friends say the pain will lessen, right now that seems impossible. I can't imagine my life without you but I have no choice. 63, you were still young!
I love you mom, you were the best, you taught me so much, helped me so much, went through so much. Thank you for everything you did for me.
I miss you! Always....
Hello Karma, I am so, so sorry for your loss. This is a beautiful letter. I hope maybe it helped in some way to write it down. I know it helped me when I wrote to my grandmother.
ReplyDeleteYou obviously had a really great mum :-) I don't know what your belief system is, but I think your mum knows how you feel.
There's always some guilt attached to bereavement. I don't know why, but it seems like a necessary part of the process.
Emotional wounds are like any other type of wound; they heal in their own time. People can say whatever they like; you will recover exactly as your body, mind and soul need to. Until then, I hope you have people around you who are loving and supportive.
Love, Tilda.